It's 12:10am on Sunday night (yes, technically Monday morning). I should have been sleeping two hours ago, but got caught up working on some stuff (post birthright projects, prep. for a session I am coordinating at the Chabad on Campus conference, etc').
Anyhow, tomorrow I am embarking on a pretty serious journey / challenge / mission / project... not sure how / what to call it: I am going to begin the juice diet (of Joe Cross, form the documentary "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead"), ideally I would like to do it for 60 days, I will be VERY happy if I make it to 30 and will be satisfied if I make it to 15, but for now I am aiming for 10 days. That's 10 days on JUST juice.
How can I express my feelings and thoughts at this time? Hmmm.... well, I guess I have conflicting thoughts.
I am excited about this, excited about the idea of eating healthy and loosing lots of my excess weight.
Concerned, concerned because I don't really know what to expect, worried that it will disturb me from being a proper father and husband and disturb me from my work....
But I am determined.
Determined because I know this is the right thing for me to do and the time is now (there is no better time for me to try this on my calendar than now), I am pretty much determined that this is the right thing, that this is what God wants of me now.
I haven’t felt this excited in a while…. It’s similar to the feeling I had before one of our kids were born or the night before we got married….
My wife Hadasa is supporting me all the way - I guess that's all that really matters and is what’s most important anyways, right?
I've already invested several hundred dollars into this (between purchase of juicer and all the fruits...) and many, many hours of research and preparation into this....
On the one hand I don't want to tell anyone for fear "what if it doesn't work out..." on the other hand I WANT to tell everyone because
1) That's just my personality - I am expressive about how I feel, whether happy, sad, disturbed, whatever...
2) I want to share this with people because I just think it's really cool
3) I feel like by involving / inviting people into this story, it will help me and encourage me to continue and prove myself (and everyone else) that "yes, I can!"
Anyhow, I've been rambling too much....
I hope to be able to share some lessons and thoughts that I experience along the way with anyone who cares to listen. I pray to Hashem that he lead me in the path of success to be able follow through with this.
I know the REAL work begins when I have to transition from this juice fast into real life eating within moderation.... but we'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Good night (or morning) to ya'll.